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Akashic Records Reading [Written]: A New Take on Mastery

The following is a Akashic Records Reading (Written) originally performed for a client. This is a reading performed over two weeks and delivered to the client in written, essay form. All references to the person's identity were replaced with a fictional alias to protect their privacy. For the purposes of this publication, some portions of the original reading may have been rephrased, edited out, or added to, but no changes were made that would impact the original, intended meaning. Additional readings are published at the Patreon page. For more information about Akashic Records Readings in general, please see: Akashic Records Readings. For more information about Written Readings specifically, please see: Reading Types at a Glance.

artistic rendition of meditating monk in green scenery[Kevin (not the person’s real name) requested a reading to deepen his knowledge about his spiritual path. He mentioned he was a disciple of Paramhansa Yogananda, and that he had received the name Jahan (also not the true name) from his spiritual mentor.]

Part I. Spiritual Transitions

1.1 East and West

Prior to the reading I took a moment to perform a brief research on the life and work of Paramhansa Yogananda. I did so to have some grasp on his teachings and philosophy, as I was largely unfamiliar with him and his work. This research was at the same time quite superficial because as I’m intuitively focusing on the energy of the person being read, I don’t like knowing too much beyond the information conveyed by the person, or too much information about someone else’s life story.

As I went through the material I was drawn to the topic of marrying the Western and Eastern societies, namely the pragmatic approach, quality of life, and efficiency of the West, with the spiritual acuity, devotion, and sensitivity of the East. I was under the impression this was one of the great overarching topics of Paramhansa Yogananda’s life and work, as he himself had traveled from India to establish himself in the U.S. and perform his work there.

I realized this also tied with Jahan’s spiritual path. I would say Kevin/Jahan’s life would have followed a personal life path that includes these two elements: he would have been born in the western world and/or with a degree of influence from this culture and in this context, and then later in life discovered, explored, and went to abide by, teachings and philosophies with strong eastern roots, specifically those of Paramhansa Yogananda.

In order to proceed we’ll now offer an observation about the these two sides on an energy and consciousness level.

The West greatly developed the individual quality of life, specifically from a material standpoint. It has a mindset which is practical-minded, focuses on what is useful, what works, and how to make things happen. It allows not just for better individual living, but as a collective it is also fertile ground for significant forays to be made into, and progress over time made in, the realms of freedom of expression, human rights, personal liberties, and social equality. While these things may not be ideal at any given point in time, they tend to at least be discussed, talked about, be brought to the spotlight, and therefore exposed to scrutiny, and possibly improvement.

However because the progress in personal freedom and material abundance is not always matched by an equal development in inner spiritual connection, the Western mentality can also become quite the fertile ground for the unbounded feeding of the ego and ego-based desires. Material pleasures become vices, addictions. Consciousness becomes bound and limited by the wishes of the ego, often prone to negative behavior. The environment, the balance and respect for it, is neglected in favor of consumerism, growth, and material and economic priorities. Furthermore those in places of power are tempted to take advantage and manipulate those same desires of the ego, for their gain and to keep the mind of the ‘average man’ subdued. Those in the scientific communities, with an inquisitive scientific mind but without the openness of heart afforded by the spiritual connection within, may become highly skeptic and even cynical of anything the microscope isn’t able to see. While certainly understandable as a degree of inner discernment is necessary in all areas of life, the skepticism which is voluntarily blind to what remains unexplored exacerbates the separation between mind and spirit.

The West represents practical and pragmatic acuity, but also the indulging of the ego which can grow to become unchecked and out of balance.

The East – in the context of this reading we refer to the forms of mystical knowledge, philosophy, and codes of conduit, developed in the areas in and around India; but we could also include to some extent the lines of spirituality from the more eastern regions of the Asian continent – is on the other hand very spiritual. In terms of consciousness and comparatively speaking it can be more sensitive and more sensible. It naturally fosters a greater degree of respect for the wisdom of elders, and for the teachings of masters, including and especially those of the spiritual nature. It naturally gives birth to the passing of knowledge from master to disciple, teacher to pupil, mentor to apprentice, and therefore to the spontaneous development of such relationships, based in the respect for the sacred spiritual activity of teaching and learning.

The East however does have its shortcomings. In its social arrangement it tends to develop monolithic, rigid structuring with high levels of social inequality, where those at the top hold are granted a great deal of uncontested and intrinsic power, while those in the bottom are afforded comparatively scarcer resources and personal rights. The standards for personal freedom and expression, personal achievements (spiritual or otherwise), analytical thinking, and quality of life in general, are lower. These low standards foster a degree of accommodation to existing customs and structures, and act as a deterrent for social advancement, as each individual is much less likely to question things – the values and principles of their society, their role, their priorities, and so on. They are less likely to think with their own head, outside the box they grew in. If you will, to entertain thoughts on a “higher level”. This society, despite its spiritual potential, often becomes inefficient and static in a practical sense.

The East represents a more natural and easy connection and sensitivity to spiritual advancement and experience. One that is not too hampered by mind-level resistance and criticism. But by the same account, paradoxically it can also foster social and personal stagnation of progress in terms of belief and perspective.

1.2 Lenion

In order to better abstract from Kevin/Jahan’s story and identity in this lifetime, I would address the spiritual entity, born as Kevin, and later known as Jahan, by a different name. This name will be Lenion.

Lenion is not intended by this reading to be understood as “true” name for Jahan’s Soul, at least in a literal, vibrational sense. Lenion is to be understood as a reference, attributed in this reading, to the spiritual being who had many experiences in the past before ever becoming Kevin and Jahan. Jahan is Lenion; and Lenion is also Jahan, while nevertheless also referring to the full background of the spiritual entity beyond this specific lifetime. Pronoun-wise I will also be referring to this spiritual entity as a “He”, for general ease of understanding.

The two elements – the East and the West, or in a spiritual/energy sense, spiritual purity and material pragmatism – have been ever present in Lenion’s journey as a spiritual being, particularly in past-lives on Earth. Across his experiences of incarnation he has been “jumping” between the two.

He has always found solace, comfort, relief, and grounding, when incarnating in the East, especially as he chose chose the incarnational experience that allowed the spiritual/religious practices and philosophies to be accepted and followed. This line of religious and spiritual practice (without specifying any one in particular, only referring to the general “family” of mystical philosophies as well as their masters) – as well as their context of society and culture, were always his spiritual “comfort zone”. One that to him was familiar and easy to adhere to and follow. It was the case also as he found them in this lifetime.

The combination of the spiritual philosophy with its cultural/societal background allowed for a fairly powerful legitimate, truthful spiritual connection and practice, while at the same time being supported by a strict and conservative mode of thinking where there wasn’t too much room for questioning, for raising doubt. Without a too strong of mental activity and questioning – a mental thinking that when overused can block the spiritual connection – following a practice and routine is more straightforward, less complicated. And thus it allows for a life experience which bears a higher level of tranquility and simplicity in what is believed in, and what is adhered to, in particular spiritual-wise. Incarnation in these circumstances would take place as a sequence of lifetimes, in the context here described accounting for 60% of Lenion’s experience.

While the spiritual connection achieved in such context is very much true and valid – hence its power and meaning – the (relative, comparative) absence of questioning on the mental level would have the effect, accrued over the periods of time incarnating in such context, in having the spiritual self miss that component of mental reasoning and questioning, its “analytical” thinking if you will.

This would not be so much an ego-based desire, but an appropriate and legitimate desire of the spiritual self in wanting to find its own ways, to “have its own mind”, to “think with its own head”. Meaning, to develop and maintain a discernment of its own. To have the capacity to not just follow what others believe, or what the masters of old experienced and put on paper for others to interpret, but to also be able to bear and develop the capacity to hold one’s own identity, and live one’s own story/path. And ultimately, to walk its own path of spiritual mastery and graduation.

The spiritual truth at the root of this desire, is that ultimately the path of ascension/graduation/mastery is one that must be done individually, i.e. at the rhythm of one’s own tune. It is a highly personal path, completely unique to the self. Hence there is a need to be able to discern things on my own, as that ability is necessary to be able to identify, know, carve, and navigate my own path. This will be felt by Kevin/Jahan as a spiritual and legitimate desire to carve its own path, to think with his own mind.

There is also the desire to update himself on the new ways of the world, for example to try to follow teachings and masters that are more recent, fresh, in tune with the world today, as opposed to those who lived many thousands of years ago, in societies and cultures that no longer exist.

At this point in the incarnation cycle, when Lenion was missing the mindset that would foster a more elaborate thinking, in more analytical and independent terms, he would then shift in his incarnation experience, by venturing into incarnation in a Western society (European or North-American) where he knew he’d have more personal freedom to think, choose, and act. Said incarnational experiences constitute 40% of experiences in the context here described.

This is not to say western societies were perfect in this regard, i.e. that they were always devoid of suppression of free speech, free thought, or from the conditioning of the thoughts and opinions of individuals to serve the ulterior reasons of some master, lord, or domain. In fact the further one goes back in time the more intense and limiting the restraints Western societies imposed on the perception of man would be. However in this regard there would always seem to exist, on some level, a difference between the East and the West. It’s as if there would always be some kind of spark, perhaps greater in the West, that made individuals think, question, and rise up against tyranny and conditioning – at least eventually. There was always looming on the horizon the possibility for some kind of change, that almost always could bring greater quality of free thought and evolution of the consciousness. Bottom line was that, in terms of opportunities for incarnation, and specifically if the desired experience was to have greater independence in terms of personal free will and critical thinking, there were certainly a greater number and variety of choices in the West.

However without the very strict and rigid structure afforded by the Eastern way of thinking, and with the increased freedom in choice-making, there was also greater opportunity for forays to be made into the realms of material pleasure and indulgence, that were not necessarily kept in balance by the observation of personal and spiritual discernment. And so Lenion would in fact have the tendency in those periods to, slowly but surely, eventually, explore said pleasures and ways of thinking, down a path where those would inevitably become controlled by the ego, and grow irrevocably out of balance.

As these cycles kept Lenion delving further and further into a state where he would lose control of himself, and get entangled in a never-ending myriad of unbalanced behaviors, vices, dependencies, and seeking low-consciousness pleasure and gain, he would eventually be forced to cut loose from them, as no solution or escape from them could be found. Eventually, he would either find himself so deeply trapped and seemingly without “salvation” from his own acts and choices that on the spiritual level he would have no choice but to leave the Western world behind – or he had gotten himself in such a numb and fractured state of consciousness that he to be rescued out of that point of no return by his monitoring guidance team – transitioning his consciousness, in a semi-aware state, back into the safety of his Eastern incarnation ‘mode’. So by the end of these periods of incarnating in the West, he would go back to the a new phase incarnating in the familiar East.

From this type experience Lenion started to perceive himself as incapable, weak, without strength or clarity to resist the urges of the ego and the material world, due to the way of thinking of the West. He would confer to this scenario the trait of being purely ‘evil’, ‘negative’. Something that intrinsically and inevitably lead to corruption, no matter how much one tried or fought against it. The corrupting characteristic of this experience was perceived as being ultimately impossible to prevent or avoid.

However the East, although a safer and ‘purer’ experience in a spiritual sense – and one that was most definitely needed to heal and recover from the traumatizing and seemingly corrupting cycles in the West – never changed in its trait of providing comparatively reduced personal expression or thought. Because of this what would happen was that, eventually, after having recovered fully and feeling with the strength for a new challenge, Lenion would inevitably feel an ever increasing desire to go back to the West, and have another try at carving its own path, develop its own way of thinking.

Even on the spiritual level, he would hold this desire with guilt. He had labeled the East consciousness as pure, good. It was a safe place that allowed him to fully recover and re-center himself. And as the desire to venture back to the West appeared and grew in him, he would immediately label this desire as negative, as something his “lower self” wanted. By wanting to perform his own exploration of material experience and critical thinking, this part of the himself in his eyes seemingly wished nothing more than to satisfy his low energy cravings and vices. So he resisted the desire. It was the safe thing to choose: to not venture outside the East at all. To not cave in to the urges of the “lower self”. To remain in a space that felt good and pure to him.

But the desire would never subside. It would seemingly only grow and grow. Until inevitably, eventually, it grew too much for him to handle.

This too seemed to reinforce Lenion’s own perception that he was weak to deal with his own cravings of his “lower self”. That these seemed to have a hold on him that was ultimately beyond his control. He felt as if this was some kind of malignant force to himself that was actually controlling him instead.

The desire’s intensity would become so strong, that it eventually made Lenion reconsider everything, including himself and his own nature. How could he feel something so strongly – and which didn’t seem to be of a particularly negative nature – if it wasn’t meant to serve his divine purpose and nature? How could he feel something that was inappropriate in some way?

Perhaps this desire was good? Perhaps he needed to venture to the West and try again? Perhaps he was now strong enough to withstand the cravings of the ego?

And so Lenion eventually would decide at this point to return to the West, and allow himself to undergo that experience. So after having gone through an incarnational cycle in the East, there would be a change back again to the West.

But the nature of his experiences in the West would not change either. Inevitably, sooner or later, the increased personal freedom would have him find himself deep in the clutches of negativity and ego. And eventually he would be forced to return to the East to heal.

This only further reinforced his perception of the negativity of the West, and of his weakness in dealing with it. He felt powerless to deal with materialism. He labeled having ‘liberty’ as being ‘libertarian’ (with a pejorative connotation). He also further believed, more and more, each time the cycle repeated, that he had made the wrong choice in caving in to his desires when he was back in the East.

This cycle between East and West carried on, always with the same inevitable experiences and results. Each time consolidating further and further his own perceptions about these two energies, and of his own nature.

It is likely that in this lifetime, prior to discovering spirituality and the mysticism of the East, before being given the name Jahan, the life of Kevin was likely fraught with the perception of weakness of the self regarding the material world. Perhaps there were experiences of strong, alluring, life-affecting vices and addictions, and the inability to cope with them. Perhaps there was a complex mixture of stimuli and life elements that was fraught with chaos, separation, and suffering. This, along with the background in having been born in and/or culturally influenced by the West, represented Lenion’s experience in this setting.

Then, the coming in contact with the spiritual elements of the East was a turning point. The experience might have been felt as a salvation, as a very sharp 180º turning point, which seemed to give him the answers and solutions to all. Going into this new phase of his life represented to him being ‘safe’ and ‘saved’ by the comparatively risk-free spirituality of the East, which he embraced wholeheartedly.

But now, deep back in is mind, a slither of doubt starts to arise. There is something missing, something that is still to be addressed. Or is there?

In the back of his mind he questions. What if I want to go back to my dark ways? What if I’m not strong enough to resist? What if I end up betraying the morals, values, and people that saved me, and spoil the grace, the clemency, and everything else, I was granted? But if this desire grows and grows, as it has in the past, does it mean my only choices are to stay in suffering or repeat the same fate again?

Lenion fears devolving back to this same pattern once again, and keep repeating it over and over.

1.3 Ego (1): Spiritual Nature, Principle of Separation

During the stage of life where you were still known as Kevin you might have experienced a great deal of difficulty dealing with excesses and vices, and otherwise unbalanced ego-driven behavior. It is even possible to this day you don’t completely understand these aspects of yourself. You may not be able to distinguish very well what is ego from what isn’t. This is another reason why the alignment with the mindset and philosophies of the East are so soothing, because the teachings keep things “simple”. You don’t have to think too much about what is right or wrong. It simplifies the decision-making.

Given your spiritual background there’s probably little necessity to offer an intricate description about what the ego is, nevertheless we’ll proceed to establish a framework of thought about this matter, for the purposes of this reading.

The ego is the portion of the self desires to be famous, adulated, respected by all, better than others, in order to feel superior to them in some way. The ego desires to vanquish and overpower one’s neighbor in possessions, value, power, and merit. The ego wants to obtain personal worth and social standing by deriving it from others who confer those things to it. The ego wants to be better than everyone else. The ego also dreads losing any and all energy, attention, and worth, that had managed to persuade others to offer it.

The ego can, and very often does, take hold of spiritual matters as well. For example the ego desires to show others he is close to the great revered masters, to mingle with them equal to equal and above all else. The ego wants to be a famous past-life, a famous ascended master incarnate, a revered and esteemed figure from the past who everyone knows about, who everyone respects and admires – so it can draw respect and value that way. The ego can quite often derive identity and worth, to the eyes of others, from whenever source it can conceive and focus upon, and this includes the identification with spiritual groups, labels, masters, or famous past-lives, for example.

Most spiritual teachings and philosophies on Earth will often state, in some way or another, that in order to reach Nirvana/Ascension/Graduation – or whatever concept is used to describe the learning of one’s Soul lessons – the ego is something to overcome, perhaps even to be eliminated altogether. This line of thought will often look upon the ego and anything about it as low consciousness, if not even negativity. The ego is then the source of all imbalance, separation, and suffering. It is labeled as purely evil and corrupting; something that cannot be indulged in any way shape or form; and that must be diligently kept at bay, out of sight, and eventually defeated, as the ultimate challenge or goal of the spiritual self.

To be fair, no information in this reading is to be construed as conveying that the ego is perfectly innocent, innocuous – let alone easy to deal with. Indeed it’s in some form or another at the root cause of all experience of pain, strife, suffering, and separation, in the lives of human beings. Especially as the ego itself tends to not even be acknowledged by ‘common human consciousness’. Instead it tends to identifying with it, and with the mind, thus giving them power.

At this point there’s now an idea we’d want to establish, and that’s as follows: the ego is not really unique to the human being.

“Technically“ it is true the ego human beings experience it is a mind-based construct, and only exists as we know it in the setting where spiritual entities, or “angels”, incarnate as human beings. But the Ego is in reality an intrinsic byproduct of the separation of each Soul from the state of Unity with Sacred Infinity.

The moment a Soul detached itself from God in order to begin its journey across the Cosmos, and in physical matter whenever that’s the case, there is a thin “layer” of consciousness “tissue” that stands between the Soul and the state of Sacred Infinity itself, meant to create and solidify a separation in perception: between the perception of the individual awareness of the Soul of itself, and its own perception of being One and the same with Sacred Infinity.  This separation is meant to “lock in place” the existence of the Soul and its path. It is the original separation on the Soul level. It’s what allows the Soul to seriously focus on the matters of the self, seeking and exploring what will bring it fulfillment, joy, and understanding of the self – as opposed to being constantly tempted with easily abandoning everything behind and returning to the experience of unity with God. It is what seals the deal, locks the “contract” in place.

This principle or “seal” of separation can never be undone, unless the Soul knew itself ready to shift back into a state of pure Union with Source, which will only ever happen when it has reached its most absolute goals and desires at the core of its consciousness.

This separation is in place even if the Soul on the highest orders of consciousness is perfectly aware of – and can even experience firsthand – Unity with Infinity. It is somewhat permeable. It can allow the Soul to know and be aware that it is Source. But will prevent the Soul from actually re-entering back into Source in an irrevocable and definitive manner, if you will, until all its wishes for the purposes of experience and self-discovery are completely and utterly fulfilled.

This layer of separation is also closely related to the Soul’s story of having left God. This memory is usually not pleasant, “nice”. Leaving the state of Unity with Infinity will involve an experience of deep loss to some degree. It is a departure that is traumatic, to some extent felt or interpreted as involuntary by the Soul. It involves a breaking away from the ultimate state of Love and infinity; the perception of having left Home; of losing something very important deep within; of being rejected by God, etc. Therefore this principle or seal of separation itself is something that bears the memory of suffering and trauma as well. It may sometimes be called the “original wound”. This core separation, along with its ancestral memory of trauma, does propel the Soul into motion, seeking the answers to its questions, in turn closely related to the seeking that made it leave God in the first place. Who am I? What is my nature? What is happiness to me? What is important to me? But it also bears the potential for any beliefs and choices that might have the Soul see itself as all others, and consequently bearing the potential for negative or dual behavior.

Let us offer an example. A spiritual entity might start engaging in the behavior of draining energy from others, or drawing self-worth, or identity, from others – even if it is unaware of it. Because at its core it might believe or feel alone, isolated, or abandoned, etc.

That is not to say that spiritual entities have the same ego constructs the same way human beings do. But they do bear the potential to sustain beliefs or perspectives of separation, due to their own principle of separation within. And these beliefs might have them make choices or take on paths that are based in separation in some way.

Of course, the higher the consciousness a spiritual entity operates in, and has graduated into, the less likely it is to engage in behavior based in separation. Furthermore past a certain stage of spiritual progress, negativity per se ceases to exist. Our point being that the ego is not unique to the human being, nor does it make him/her flawed by nature. Spiritual entities bear the potential for perspectives of separation, and thus “ego-like” and negative behavior, even beyond the realms of physical incarnation. It is therefore something common to the spiritual nature of all entities. This is our first point.

You may see the process of biological birth involved in incarnation, and the ego construct that human beings hold and develop, as in a sense an echo, a reflection, or a repetition on a smaller scale if you will, of these broader aspects held by the spiritual self.

Metaphysically speaking being born into a physical body involves an abrupt loss of consciousness, and especially of memory – of what happened in the past, past-lives, and beyond incarnation – thus resembling and corresponding to the departure of the Soul from God on a broader scale; the ego construct known and experienced by human beings is also a reflection, a manifestation, of the broader core aspect of separation standing at the root of the Soul.

1.4 Ego (2): Aspect of Truthfulness

The principle of separation sits at the base of the Soul. In reality it is very closely related to the true Nature/Essence of the Soul. It needs to be – otherwise it wouldn’t hold any power.

Let’s illustrate with an example. Let’s say that within God there’s an aspect of Its infinite consciousness who asks “who’s the most courageous?”. By virtue of this question, that portion of consciousness will become a Soul projected outwards, bearing the lessons, and potential, of dealing with the theme of courage (in an Universe of duality, with the lack of it as well). In a sense that Soul is the question that was asked. Another portion of consciousness might ask “who’s the most loyal?”, then the Soul that comes forth from Infinity will deal with the theme of loyalty – and its opposites, abandonment, or lack of support. The moment the Soul projects outward from infinity, its principle of separation that occurs to make the coming forth of the Soul is also dealing exactly with this very theme. This is what will make the Soul go forth and explore its very nature.

These are but simple examples presented in this reading to convey an idea. Questions placed by infinite consciousness are not that straightforward, of course. Souls are infinitely complex. But they are indeed born of that core desire to know the self. These examples mean to transmit the Soul ‘s principle of separation is always closely related to its own nature, and to the lessons it hopes to accomplish. In other words, the principle of separation of a spiritual entity – and the ego of the human being as well – always deal with core elements and desires that are truthful, genuine, close to the true nature of the Soul – so they are, in a very real sense and to a degree, legitimate as well.

In other words, what the ego feels and wants is actually not false, per se. At least not entirely.
It’s just that the greater the perception of separation (and deprived from the guidance of spiritual insight, which comes from belief of seeing oneself, and the mind, separated from Spirit) the ego tends to take ideas, feelings, desires, and exaggerate them far beyond proportion. The more the trauma of separation, the more it tries to seek ways to compensate. It tends to overreact, to want and seek the biggest possible outcome. It tries to take whatever it can get. But it is never satisfied. It cannot ever feel the wholeness of true connection, because it is made of separation.

But it does seek, at its core, what is meaningful and relevant for the Soul.

When one wants to win, to conquer, to attain triumph over an opponent, or to fight violence using a greater degree of violence, what one truly wants is to triumph over his own fears and limitations, to be free from them, and to experience the feeling of liberation that comes from achieving this.

When one wants the power to rule over others, to do as he wishes, what is truly wanted is personal power, freedom, and salvation. To feel protected from suffering, separation, abandonment, or hurting, at the hands of others. To have clarity, knowledge, to know what is right, who he is, and where he stands. And to have the personal willpower to carry forth that genuine truth. To be free of the limiting beliefs and restrictions from the rest of society that might prevent him from doing so.

When one wishes to engage in unbalanced patterns of structure-less and promiscuous sexuality, one is in fact seeking true unconditional and Infinite Love as experienced through the intimate romantic connection with another in the physical plane.

When one wants the attention from others, to be listened, to be heard, to be taken seriously and given respect, he’s looking for true wisdom and mastery, which naturally bring acknowledgment from others.

When the spiritual initiate dreams, fantasizes, wants to be like the master, greater than the master, cozy with the master, what he really wants is to become a master himself. He wants to go down the path of ascension, mastery, graduation, and succeed. And attain the same quality of the one who did this and eventually became master himself. Not yet knowing how that can be done, what his own path is and how it is to unfold, he’s like the child daydreaming, running about pretending to be the master he knows, or he’s been told about. It is a desire that manifests utilizing the molds, concepts, and experiences of the past that are known. And it is ardent – because it is truthful at its core – that it can grow to become quite powerful.

But if the self truly holds the potential of achieving spiritual mastery, then the core desire is legitimate. And so are, to an extent, the dreaming, the fantasy.

The hyperbole, the exaggeration, the fantasy of the ego, while certainly seldom healthy to entertain in a literal sense, at face value, at its core cannot be criticized, any more than you would criticize the child who daydreams. You wouldn’t forbid the child from watching cartoons, from running around making pew-pew noises, from creating an entire world within their minds. It is normal.

Attempting to completely suppress the ego – or holding the belief that sees this as the ideal, the goal – also suppresses part of the genuine self.

The ego is a construct of separation, created to navigate a realm of separation: in physical matter there’s a metaphysical veil creating the illusion of separation between the human being and Spirit. But the ego, boiling down its exaggerated energy to its true core function, seeks fulfillment through practical experience in the realm of matter, aligned with the nature of the Soul.

Let us offer an example. Let us say one’s spiritual Essence is that of a teacher. Initially the self had no awareness of this aspect of himself, but then at some point in time this is realized by the self.

Reaching the realization itself is a wondrous, liberating step. I am a teacher. This is my nature. This is all well and good. But there will come a time when the human being will actually desire to step forth and become an actual teacher, of its preferred theme of study, in a practical, pragmatic sense – to place his own role in practice. He will want to go through the experience of being a teacher.

At that point, the ego might start to crave for attention from others. To be listened by others. To garner the respect of others, so that they are willing to be taught by the teacher. While this desire can become unbalanced, in a sense it is also legitimate for the self to want to be given attention and respect for his role as a teacher. For is the teacher a teacher if he lacks an audience to teach? The spiritual self knows he will have succeeded in finding his desired role in a practical sense, when he reaches a point where he’s indeed listened to by others, therefore being able – and asked – to perform his role. The feeling of the experience will be known or predicted by the spiritual self as it is the marker, or milestone, of having achieved his intended spiritual goals.

In this example, it would make zero sense for the teacher Soul to dismiss the desire itself for an audience. To judge, criticize, or even suppress the desire itself. He’d be throwing out the baby with the bathwater. To remain in balance he would have to detach from the need, from the attachment to the energy of others. From any dependency, and the dependency of the formulation of his own identity, placed on others giving him attention. As this would be the element causing imbalance. This would be the energy of the ego getting out of hand. But he wouldn’t have to suppress or criticize the actual desire itself. Because it lied close to his actual spiritual goals, which were natural, legitimate, and very real. In fact, criticizing the desire itself could result in the teacher blocking his actual, truthful, legitimate spiritual path, as he would label it as erroneous and flawed.

1.5 Transitions in Consciousness

Planet Earth’s human consciousness has been focusing for significant periods in the lessons involving the transition between 3D and 4D (“D” standing for “Density”, i.e. level of consciousness).

3D is the consciousness of survival of the fittest; every man for himself; doing what you have to do in order to succeed, or at least avoid failing. 3D is the need to survive and thrive in a harsh world. Deep down it believes all individuals are fundamentally to be separated from each other, and that life is essentially devoid of underlying meaning. Experience in physical matter and operating under a 3D level of consciousness can be harsh and unforgiving. Consequences in the most severe situations can involve loss of life, loss of health, loss of personal power, loss of money, loss of reputation, be hurt or deceived by others, losing one’s place or role to others, etc. Because of fear of these consequences 3D consciousness may accept engaging in less than honest or positive behavior for the purposes of achieving one’s ends. This allowance may give birth to unscrupulous, unethical, and/or ego-based choices and actions, not minding if others suffer or experience loss as a consequence. It is the doubt whether to do the ‘right’/correct/altruistic thing, or go the easier route that might cause negative impact or infringe on the free will of another.

4D is the consciousness of peace and love. It is the level of awareness where one has decided to not engage in behavior that will in any way cause pain and suffering to others. In order to have graduated from 3D to 4D the entity will have in some way, at some point, gained sensitivity to the pain and separation it has caused in the past to others as consequence of its own actions and choices. On a deep spiritual level there was an acknowledgment, a contact, with the core reality that all are the same, all are one, and all are spiritually connected with one another through ties of love – it is the reason how the entity was able in the first place to connect with the experience of pain felt by others due to its own actions; it is the reason why the pain of others is now relevant. In this graduation there is often also a prevalent feeling of guilt, which is a residue of the separation and negativity inflicted or created in the past as a result of one’s actions that was not realized or changed right away.

4D consciousness has now made the commitment to not engage in any action that can be perceived as violent, harmful, or negative to others. It is the person who tries to do the right thing in a practical manner, even if solely based on principle, i.e. without personal interest or gain, or perhaps even at a loss. 4D consciousness can be lax in terms of maintaining personal boundaries as the entity is trying its hardest to avoid doing anything that might be confrontational to others, and might be felt by others as negative or uncomfortable. The individual avoids being assertive, as it fears inadvertently doing the wrong choice, or that others might have unpleasant experience or discomfort. Due to negative past actions there is now a complete lack of trust in one’s discernment, wishes, choices, desires, and impulses, and a degree or surrender or deference to the discernment of others instead.

The bulk of the human consciousness on the planet can be said to have been, for the most part and in average, operating on the 3D level, and undergoing lessons involving the progression into 4D. As a result the majority of spiritual texts, teachings, religions, and spiritual philosophies on the planet mainly address in some way these two levels of awareness. They generally criticize the low-energy behavior that creates separation, harm, violence, or disrespects the free will of the fellow human being, while praising the personal demeanor and life choices that are altruistic; that devalue or put into perspective material wealth; that consider the well-being of another before taking action; that attempt to do good rather than harm – sometimes also praising martyrdom, altruistic suffering, and carrying the burden of another, as well. Generally speaking religions that establish a strict set of rules for good conduit but do not empower individuals with their own discernment when making choices – i.e. imposing such rules with fear of negative consequence such as suffering in the afterlife – operate more on the 3D level; while those that explicitly maintain in their teachings the banishment of all forms of violence, tend to operate more on the 4D level.

However, spiritual progress doesn’t stop there.

On the 4D level the individual or spiritual being has completely forsaken violence, but along with it, to a large extent, also his/its own inner voice. Due to the extent of guilt and charge related to having performed negative actions in the past, there is now an intense reluctance in expressing the desires and aspirations within, having a tendency to label them all as negative, erroneous, or at least doubtful, not trustworthy. The surrender of the graduation has also lead to a distrust of the inner self. Instead, there’s now a willingness to suppress the self, and simply align with the external ideas, beliefs, and choices, what are perceived as the most benevolent or ‘right’. Such values tend to be perceived and sought externally, as opposed to be examined and determined internally, because again there’s a lack of confidence in one’s own discernment when determining what to do and how to interpret things.

But the the 4D’s suppression of one’s own inner reality also includes one’s inner truth as well. It is not selective, discarding ‘bad’ things while allowing only the ‘good’ ones to come forth. Because, again, the inner discernment to do so is not trusted. What happens now is that, in its benevolent intent, much of that is truly genuine about the self tends to be suppressed, avoided, in an attempt “to stay on track” and avoid committing any more mistakes.

While benevolent in intent, at some point the consciousness operating in 4D will eventually need to make the resolve to burst out of the boundaries it had set itself in, in order to be able to start deciding for itself what is good and what is less good – in other words, owning the responsibility of its own discernment. For that end, it will necessarily have to be willing to “remove the plug” if you will, and allow what is inner to come forth once again. This transition is 4D to 5D.

5D is the consciousness of freedom, expression, communication, and creativity. It builds upon 4D. One is a progression of the other. It still retains being benevolent as a priority, being aligned and appropriate, and not harming others – but not at the cost of the true expression of the self. A 5D entity has realized not being able to express the inner self, suppressing the self, is causing harm to the self. So now expressing the self is the one priority above not cause harm on others. Not causing harm to others can’t be used as an excuse to allow harm to the self.

This spiritual transition will usually be felt by the entity as not being able or willing to hold, contain, any longer, its own truth within. The entity no longer wants to suppress the self. There will be an immense desire to come forth, to reveal, and above all else, to not suppress any longer what it truly feels, what it truly thinks, and what it truly wants, no longer being willing to align with others and in the external about what to believe in, how to behave correctly, how to be correct and appropriate. More than a seeking of happiness or joy, it is more than anything a liberation, a relief. A high sensitivity and intolerance to suppressing oneself again now arises, along with a high degree of impulsiveness – a natural shift in the opposite direction of suppressing oneself through guilt.

A correspondence can be established between these levels of consciousness and the chakras in the human body. The 3rd chakra is the center of personal power, the ability to act, navigate, and affect the world in a pragmatic manner. The 4th chakra is the center of love, empathy, and connection, the ability to empathize with others on a spiritual, meaningful level. The 5th chakra is the center of communication, the ability to express one’s inner truth with courage, determination, and creativity. 5D energy is also referenced as Indigo energy, also the color of that chakra.

There were many who during their lifetimes attained graduation, or at some point underwent transition, from 4D to 5D levels of awareness. It’s just that these masters would tend to be less ‘advertised’ if you will, they tended to be less visible, were less reported and written about, simply because human consciousness was less ready and sensitive to this kind of transition, by virtue of dealing for the most part with the 3D to 4D lessons. Nevertheless we can offer examples.

The life of Buddha can be offered as one such example. In his lifetime there was a first moment of choice/transition when he left behind his wealth, family, titles, and social standing. As he released the attachment to material wealth and sought a more free and pure connection with Nature and Spirit, this decision can be likened to a 3D to 4D transition. Then there was another stage of his life, the one where he was seen with added weight. He allowed himself the freedom to experience pleasures and abundance of a material or physical kind – in this case food. From this moment in his life comes the known saying “everything in moderation”. He understood he was suppressing the inner self by withholding his desires, and he could in fact experience these things, provided he did so with discernment, in appropriate amounts, to an appropriate degree. This was 5D consciousness.

5D transitions aren’t always perfectly harmonious, balanced. It is true that Buddha had gained physical weight as a result of his realization. As an entity or individual makes a transition from 4D to 5D, because it/he had spent so much time suppressing the self and all of its desires, by the time it reaches 5D all it wants is to vent, express, sometimes in a rather aggressive, loud, or abrupt manner – it was in fact this exact energy that had it/he push out of 4D anyway. The entity couldn’t hold on any longer.

So in the early stages of 5D the entity will often be prone to extremes, to a rebellious or unrestricted nature in carrying out its ways, almost in celebratory fashion, for finally having ended its entrapment in 4D, in what was felt as a vice – in this case meaning “hold”: of limiting beliefs, of cultural restrictions, of the opinions of others, and of guilt and shame.

Furthermore, right before transitioning to 5D, the entity still in 4D has the tendency to delay the transition as much as possible. Because it mistakes the assertiveness and strength of 5D with the violence and unguided negativity of 3D. Since the entity already knows very well – felt it in its skin so to speak – how much pain and separation its past 3D actions caused (which is why it graduated into 4D in the first place), there’s understandably an extreme reluctance in advancing into 5D, for fear in engaging in negative, unrestricted behavior yet again. It is for this reason that in transitioning from 4D to 5D there usually is the advent of a point of incredible saturation, before, and leading to, the eventual decision to liberate the self.

1.6 Paramhansa Yogananda

Paramhansa Yogananda desired in his lifetime to bring the Eastern culture, and especially its potential and teachings of spiritual connection, to the West. This was his passion, because despite knowing full well the potential for negativity and ego stemming from materialism, he also truly admired the practical achievements Western society had achieved. He really thought that the ideal life circumstances for the human being were combining the true spiritual acuity and connection of the East, with the standards of living, and to an extent the ability for critical though and creativity, of the West. Spirituality would be able to guide the inner impulses directed towards the material, keeping them in balance, while the higher standards for living and free thought could maximize the potential for already spiritually connected individuals to expand their study of all spiritual matters and fields of knowledge.

It would be the perfect marriage.

There was a point though where during his lifetime, despite having achieved so much in terms of introducing the East to the West, Paramhansa Yogananda felt he wasn’t going to achieve the degree of integration he had idealized. The Eastern philosophies and ideas were introduced, and were “out there”, but they were somewhat still fringe, alternative. They didn’t entirely revolutionize the way of thinking of the West as a whole, and many areas of society, most importantly in higher education and decision-making, offered much resistance to them as a resulting from scrutiny which was sometimes taken to extremely aggressive and even hostile levels.

Furthermore there were layers of society which seemed hell-bent on working to prevent and counterbalance the efforts in opening the minds of individuals to new ideas, and were intending on creating the opposite effect, i.e. solidifying, calcifying, and exaggerating, the already existing mindset of material focus, of mental and sometimes cynical skepticism, and even sarcastic/ironic dismissal of such spiritual ideas painting them as buffoonery and lunacy.

It seemed that the more efforts were made to introduce spirituality to the West, this type of mental-level opinion and influence, as if developing antibodies of a twisted immune system, just got bigger and bigger to counteract it. In a manner of speaking, the more effort was made to expand the knowledge of the East in the West, the more it seemed ground was being lost, and whole sections of society were being irrevocably being lost to this exaggerated mentality of denial.

While never reaching a point of questioning his own connection and beliefs, Paramhansa Yogananda did feel within somewhat disheartened with this situation, because while on one hand “contact had been made”, in a manner of speaking, on the other he felt he was failing in his purpose of bringing the two worlds together. In fact he got the feeling that the results of his efforts were only generating a resistance that just seemed to separate the two worlds irrevocably further and further apart.

But on top of this disheartening he felt something else. In facing this difficulty, instead of desiring to come up with new and inventive solutions, and wanting to keep trying new things to fulfill his purpose, he instead started feeling less invested in his purpose.

He started feeling less and less energy, commitment, “motivation” if you will, to continue. It was something that started stemming from inside. It was something he felt, as opposed to thinking or deciding. It was, almost, spiritual. And this was something he could not suppress, fight against, escape from, or even handle in meditation. It was just there. And it was growing. He thought it was his ego, faltering and wanting to abandon hope in face of challenge.

With so many following his immediate footsteps, listening to his words, seeking him for guidance, and believing his message of integration, this inner feeling was truly something that brought him discomfort and suffering. He felt this was a cop-out, a betrayal. Of all those who followed him. And even of the guiding principles he himself had brought and installed in the West – of which he was the main figure, the spearhead. He felt he was saying one thing and wanting to do another. And he struggled to cope with it. The more time passed, the more he was at odds with his own inner self.

But the time came to clarify this situation. He asked, “what should I do?”, “tell me what to do”, and he received the answer. He was told, spiritually, he had already fulfilled his purpose, and now it was about time to go home. He had done enough. And there would be others who would continue do so for him.

He finally understood the reason why he was feeling less and less invested in his cause, was because he had actually fulfilled his purpose, the point he needed to, and his spiritual self knew this. That is why he was feeling as if he was letting go of that motivation.

He still believed his original message and intention. But he was no longer invested in it, i.e. he no longer spiritually identified with wanting to have an active role in it. There would eventually be the need for others to pick up where he left off and carry on with the mission. There would more than likely need to be adjustments and adaptations to the way things were being done, and perhaps to the message itself. The message would probably had to be somewhat adjusted and updated, so that the West wasn’t so dismissive of the original information, and wouldn’t grow so much resistant to it.

Integration would also have to occur not just outside, but also inside. If the East came in with a spiritual message, but was completely unwilling to change it at all, to adapt, to show flexibility, how could they ask or expect the West to shift in their direction? Had the West not valid merits of its own as well? If a marriage was really to take place, the East too would have to adapt.

Yet he felt he clearly wasn’t going to be the one to perform that step of the process. His energy and commitment – including on spiritual levels – wasn’t getting any stronger. Instead it was going in the opposite direction, of letting go, detaching.

And all he did, was to finally allow this detachment inside him. To accept what he was feeling. To respect how he felt. Even if initially, and for a long time, he struggled to cope with it, labeling it in negative terms.

Despite no longer being as much invested in his prior mission, now he had found a somewhat renovated sense of peace. He accepted that what he truly felt within, at this point, was that he wanted to leave. He was ready to go. And that it wasn’t a desire of his ego. It wasn’t a betrayal or a cop-out. It was a natural, appropriate, legitimate desire of his spiritual self.

He was somewhat hesitant, “tentatively cautious” so to speak. This was a completely new and unfamiliar spiritual reality to him, and he had to deal with it entirely on his own, without ever discussing it with others in its entirety. He also still had to deal with the results of his efforts that had grown all around him. He still had a sense of responsibility to what he had created, and to those who followed his teachings.

Until the moment came when he knew he could finally let it go completely. With a last flash of brilliance he addressed the audience and gave his last message. In his own terms and in his time, energy-wise he said something to the effects of “so long b*****”, and he dropped the mic (his body).

Part II. Opportunity for Progression

2.1 Integration

On a spiritual level you aren’t particularly related to the one known as Paramhansa Yogananda, save perhaps for the common familiarity and background with the spiritual philosophies of the East.

Prior to this lifetime, in the space in-between lifetimes, Lenion was “passing by”, in a manner of speaking, as he noticed and observed Paramhansa Yogananda’s path and mission on Earth. He was able to acknowledge the efforts of the master in bringing the mindset of the East into the West. He took notice, as this was something he had seldom witnessed before – he always considered these two worlds as separate. It was the first time he saw them together, in the same “room” if you will. There was a sense of marvel about it. It’s like when you notice two things you absolutely love in life suddenly start to take notice and mingle with each other. There was an excitement, a buzz in the air.

He also could see where this path of integration was leading. He understood the potentials in place in that regard. In order to carry on with the task, there would be the need for those who would come in and carry on marrying the two words, the spiritual with the material, the sensitive with the pragmatic, in a practical, hands-on approach. More than making buildings and gathering associates, it would have to be a practical, personal marriage, one where the two worlds were to be combined in the personal practical life, and then that personal life, in balance, would serve as a practical example to others.

So he nonchalantly said, “yeah. I can do that.” Without attachment. Without drama. Without any doubt regarding whether he could do it or not. He just looked at it and knew. It fit the bill. This is a task I’m willing to undertake. And so he came in.

Your task for this lifetime is to integrate the two worlds together: the highly spiritual, sensitive and devoted, with the highly material, pragmatic and exciting – in your personal life and in a practical way, first and foremost. In that process you’re also to break through fears and barriers in perception created by strict (even if benevolent) 3D and 4D beliefs, and move on into the realm of creativity, flexibility, and assertiveness, of 5D. 5D here is to work as the middle-point, and guiding factor, between 3D and 4D.

This reading is not meant to imply a grandiose, large-scale, world-altering purpose. It does not necessarily mean you’re supposed to establish organizations, associations, monasteries, temples, etc. It also doesn’t mean you’re greater or better than the master, or that you and you alone are supposed to sit on his throne and carry on with his personal work. Only and strictly that your personal spiritual advancement will rest on the (eventual) commitment to integrate, in your personal practical life, elements which you could perhaps label as material, low-energy, ego-based behavior, along with those you have already acquired of spiritual connection and practice.

2.2 Update

By doing this. you will as a consequence also contribute to update the idea of spiritual mastery – hence your desire to stay “updated” in terms of spiritual references.

In the past the frequency of vibration of physical realm on Earth was so low, and consciousness so closed, that it essentially meant that attaining mastery implying the spiritual being leaving the physical body behind in the moment of graduation. Why? Because the quality or frequency of the state of spiritual clarity (i.e. enlightenment) was so disparate and higher than the frequency of regular physical matter, that attaining enlightenment was simply incompatible with holding a physical body at the same time. In other words, enlightenment meant disappearing mid-air in a big bright flash of light; or, at the very least, leaving the body behind, i.e. dying. Here too we have the two worlds far apart.

The life of the spiritual initiate, the spiritual path, or otherwise a life truly devoted to spiritual living, would also imply in some way complete seclusion. To go live into the temple, into the monastery, into the wilderness, into the cave, or to the top of the mountain. It also implied completely giving up on material things and temptations. Clearing your life of all that could be perceived as impure or “dirty”, and choose only those things that are spiritual.

In the spiritual path there will definitely be times where one needs to clear up life of clutter. To get rid of what no longer serves one’s purpose, or is standing in the way of a life in balance. To put aside what no longer serves you and your spiritual path. To discard the things that are burdens, that are toxic, and/or keep the vibration low. That is still a valid principle.

But the progression of energy on planet Earth has given birth to a new possibility for the path of the spiritually awakened. While it is still a possibility – which is entirely tying and dependent on the unique spiritual context of the individual – to leave the plane of Earth upon attaining enlightenment, today it is now possible to undergo spiritual awakening, proceed in the path enlightenment, and undergo spiritual graduations and transitions, while this not being incompatible with living in the physical body.

It is no longer strictly necessary to choose only between one of two extreme ends of the spectrum: purity or debauchery; salvation or corruption, spirituality or materialism. The updated energies of Earth have allowed, or made it more “accessible” if you will, the possibility of a new kind of idea of mastery that can be sought and experienced. In this new line of experience the master doesn’t have to give up on something that would otherwise corrupt him. He can bring the experience into balance. He can discard the attachment to the experience – instead of throwing away the experience itself.

In other words the energy of Earth is more open and facilitating of the transition to 5D consciousness.

2.3 Moving Beyond the Cycle

The message of this reading is meant to address the pattern first described in 1.3: to cycle between the extremes of material-minded ego, and the spiritual practice that is sanitized to such a point that it leads to suppression of the true self. Therefore, in alignment with the information offered to far, spiritual progression for Lenion/Jahan/Kevin consequently will imply the willingness to venture forth into the integration of these two aspects of the self. This integration will necessarily involve, eventually, re-visiting the very aspects that were out of control during the time of Kevin, and generated the experience of addiction, separation, and chaos.

This message has the potential to be challenging. First, because the adherence to the East-based spirituality, and the ancestral memories of having done so for many lifetimes, will tend to see the allowance of any kind of material-minded desire as “sacrilege”, thus completely vowing to block it.

Secondly, because the memories (in this lifetime as well as many others) of having experienced these things in the past carry an enormous charge of chaos, negativity, and guilt. The spiritual entity observes the possibility of 5D and fears with going back to 3D. The spiritual self will absolutely fear the very though of allowance the material elements, as it dreads regressing into a time of pain and suffering, inflicted not just upon the self but perhaps to others as well.

The development of the negative cycle described in 1.3 occurs because the two worlds are so far apart that they create a hardening of the perception of separation between them.

As the self subscribes to a strict form of spirituality that rejects all materialistic desires by labeling them as “evil”, the self is now suppressing the self, including its truthful parts as well. This an appropriate spiritual lesson if this is the graduation in the path of the entity; but it is otherwise ultimately unsustainable, as no spiritual entity will allow itself to be limited in its full expression forever. To reject the material desires from the self is still a form of rejection of the self. For this reason, past a certain point, and especially if the graduation from 3D to 4D has already been attained in the past, now the entity will want more. It will feel there’s something missing. And so there will always be the desire to try to integrate the material aspects and desires. This desire will only ever grow and get stronger, especially if there is an attempt to suppress it. All that is suppressed and trapped, wants to be free.

Then, even as the entity has now gone to the other side of the fence if you will, i.e. decided to try to venture into the exploration of material desires, at some level of its perspectives held on spiritual levels there’s still the belief that these very desires are a) evil or purely negative, and 2) that the self is powerless to resist them. So the first consequence is as the entity dabbles with material things, the self is already becoming dragged down in a haze or mist of guilt. Immediately this guilt is clouding its clear judgment, and preventing clarity. Guilt accumulates and lowers vibration. It acts as a burden. The entity then gets bogged down in a swamp of its own guilt, being generated by beliefs held on spiritual levels, and intensifies any and all the “corrupting” effects of the seductive material experience.

The second consequence is that the spiritual/religious bias that perceives material desires as corrupting and impossible to avoid unless discarded entirely, is a belief that is disempowering to the self. Basically the self believes that if he is exposed to material desires he will never be able to resist. Thus, when he allows himself to experience material desires he immediately falls prey to its own belief, and is now in a state of powerlessness, without control over himself.

Both 3D and 4D spiritual views are strongly disempowering of the inner self. While abiding to a strict code of conduit as expressed by any such philosophies usually demands a high level of discipline and commitment, at the same time they are based in a deeply ingrained belief that says that the self is not capable to make its own choices, control himself, handle himself, if left to its own devices. So even if there’s a genuine attempt at self-control when dealing with the material, that self control is instantly undermined and sabotaged by a belief, held on a spiritual level and thus having the last word in the hierarchy of beliefs, that sees the self as ultimately flawed and without control.
But perhaps the final aspect of the bias that seals the solidifying of the pattern in place, is seeing both realms as separate: material/spiritual, mind/spirit, 3D/4D.

When the individual is in the East-based spiritual philosophies, these place themselves virtually separate from the material world, as they tend to reject it. So on the spiritual level the individual will eventually start missing the experience of the material, and especially being granted the merit, autonomy, his own judgment (i.e. freedom) in exploring them. So the individual, spiritually, if he wants to explore the material world in the next incarnation, he will have to leave behind the affiliation to the philosophy. Because otherwise this affiliation will simply disallow that exploration. In doing so, he’s already incurring in a penalty of guilt.

Then when the individual is exploring the material experience in a new set of incarnations (carrying his guilt invoice, which is essentially dooming him right from the start) he’s now completely outside of the realm of spirituality – because the two realms are separate. Even if there is some form of spiritual or religious affiliation, this affiliation may tend to not warrant the same inner commitment or be a catalyst for genuine spiritual connection. It can actually lead to a separation between the pious religious beliefs that are adhered to, and actual choices and actions performed on the everyday basis – further adding elements of guilt to the guilt invoice. The religious affiliation at this level can become emotionally or spiritually meaningless, i.e. without the true inner connection as experienced in the East.

As the self explores the material seductive experiences, not only he’s feeling ultimately powerless to avoid or manage them, he’s also out of touch with his inner spiritual connection that could otherwise guide him. His connection is not there. Because according to his own beliefs and previous affiliations, he has divorced it! He has left the East spiritual “world”. So spiritually he feels he’s making a mistake – and he can’t be guided in the midst of it. Thus he is doomed to never find any balance within the material realm.

Until the moment the guilt is so violent and suppressing, that, in a feeling that could be described as “eating his pride”, or “with the tail between his legs”, full of guilt and without energy, he returns back to the spiritual “world” and to his “salvation” – again having to leave the previous world behind completely. And now he’s in a position of worse self-worth, worse perception of is own authority, than when he left, seemingly validating the beliefs of the East that no balance can ever be found in the material/West.

When it’s the very belief of separation that “solidifies” the pattern itself in place, and prevents any progress from it.

There are some parallels between this pattern and the experience of Paramhansa Yogananda in the West. Past a certain point, the more he tried to “push” the original spiritual perspectives into the West the more the West seemed to resist and push back. The resistance was created by the East’s own unwillingness to shift, adapt, and instead remain in a comfortable yet arrogant place of moral superiority. That is why he eventually realized the approach needed to be changed. There needed to be some form of adaptation. Somewhere there was a meeting ground, and this meeting ground would have to be somewhere in the middle – not in one of the ends.

2.4 A New Opportunity

However there’s something new available to you, that wasn’t available before. In this lifetime you will have the opportunity, should you accept and connect with the message of this reading, to engage in the exploration of the material as you know it, already having knowledge in the same lifetime of the spiritual reference, thus without having to “leave” it completely. This is the key to break the cycle.

During the period where you experience challenge as Kevin with material or ego desires, you had no reference to a meaningful connection with spirituality. Even if there was an element the spiritual or religious, in a practical sense there was no contact from the heart with this element. This period was reminiscent of the incarnations exploring the society, mindset, and energy, of the West.

You then later found a true spiritual reference you could genuinely connect with, and which at last provided relief and clarity from the suffering related to inner desires out of balance. You felt grateful, yet a part of yourself, however small and distant in the back of the mind, is still restless, unease. There might still be something missing. This period is reminiscent of incarnations exploring the society, mindset, and energy, of the East.

In this lifetime you will thus have the potential to combine the two within the same incarnation. You will have the opportunity to integrate both of them together. For that purpose you’ll eventually but necessarily will need to detach somewhat from some of the rigidity regarding the spiritual values and beliefs upheld by your current spiritual affiliation; from the group-think that to some extent exists in your spiritual realms as well; from the acceptance and agreement even from individuals in said realm you might regard as guides and authorities – at least enough, that you may allow yourself the flexibility of belief and perception in order to understand that, even though the spiritual connection attained through this realm is indeed genuine and benevolent, there is a path further beyond it. This path is inclusive of belief and experience, as opposed to exclusive/dismissive, and will require you granting yourself the freedom to assume the responsibility of making your own choices and exploration in this regard.

It is important to note you won’t have to completely leave behind, depart, from at least the core values, experiences, references, practices, and techniques, you have learned and adhered to, on the spiritual level. In fact you will very much need them, and you will make good use of them, on a daily basis and in a practical level, as a reference and a way to attain balance and guidance, if and when you proceed to allow yourself to make this decision, in allowing the exploration and integration of the material.

What you will be truly leaving behind, is not so much your spiritual affiliation of choice, but with the necessity of conforming to it without your own discernment playing a part in your personal path.

Part III. Practical Guidelines

3.1 Point of Decision

It is possible the information in this reading strikes a chord, and puts you into motion right away regarding this path. Another possibility is for this information to remain in the back burner, simmering in the back of your mind, not inspiring immediate choice but being left for potential examination over time. There might be understandable challenge, reluctance, regarding the prospect of defying the values of the spiritual affiliation, possibly even facing practical matters of employment and/or professional role or status as well. Deep down it will be also the fear of, once again, renouncing the spiritual values that saved you, and welcomed you, and that created peace where there was chaos and suffering – in a metaphorical and perhaps also literal sense.

The issue is that the spiritual self will never be satisfied with the current state of affairs. For this reason – ultimately and hypothetically speaking “in this life of the next” – the self will eventually get so saturated and fed up by the necessity to conform to, and abide by, the spiritual teachings in their original, unchanged form, and the disempowering nature they incur on the self, that there will be an event, and/or a moment, where the self will no longer be able to hold on much longer, and will simply have, or seemingly “be forced to”, break out of the mold, think outside the box, and venture forth into an unknown new world with force and vigor.

At that point the self will finally allow itself to enjoy or explore pleasurable experience – also with the aim of keeping it in spiritual balance and integrity (5D). This will not happen because the self is weak or corruptible, but due to a legitimate spiritual aspiration of the spiritual entity in progressing beyond the duality of constantly swinging between 3D and 4D.

This also doesn’t mean that the spiritual affiliation in its original form didn’t serve a truly benevolent purpose, or that you shouldn’t be appreciative. This only means there is a personal path that builds upon the healing and clarity that was permitted by that same spiritual affiliation.

3.2 Challenging Times Ahead

At this point we do need to clearly point out that the process of integrating both potentially unbalanced material or ego desires with spiritual connection within, in a practical way, will be very difficult.

There is a very intense charge and guilt about nearly all known references of material desires, perceiving them as negative, that they leave the self out of control. Fear of this situation will be a huge deterrent to even begin exploring those very desires. Furthermore, once an entity allows the transition into a 5D way of thinking, as stated before it will have a tendency to engage in intense and extreme forms of exploration that envision liberation and freedom, as opposed to conditioning and self-limiting, as a counter-energy to these energies that were endured for so long. The longer this was adhered to, the more intense the propensity for exaggeration will be when this time comes.

In other words, mistakes will be made. Sensory and physical stimuli will at points be engaged beyond the limits of balance. The physical, emotional, and mental bodies will be subject to pressure, not just because of the experiences themselves, but because the emotional self will also be dealing with an immense amount of guilt, shame, and stigma of weakness and lack of self-control, that was accumulated for a very long time in the past, and because of this will now be coming to the fore.

In truth the self will be doing more or less the exact same thing it would do, if it had begun a new incarnation to explore the Western and material world. The sensations and feelings will be of similar type, and have a similar charge.

The only, yet critical, difference, is that this time there will be a spiritual reference, that will never be truly lost, to be used as anchor. It must be consciously used to keep the self in check, and force oneself to return back to a state of balance whenever there is the perception that he’s gone too far. This single aspect is what will differentiate the 5D situation from a 3D one: there is an active choice in assuming responsibility for this act of balancing the self.

But this will not be easy. It won’t come naturally at first. The self will have a very hard time making the distinction between what’s unbalanced and what’s balanced. Between going too far and out of control, and severely controlling the self, not allowing the experience to begin with. Between the guilt that signals for imbalance, and the guilt that’s preventing enough of the experience to occur. The self will simply not know how to do this initially. The self will also be prone to extremes, as stated. He’ll feel somewhat alone, apart from the safety net of his previous spiritual circles. Despite not being completely disengaged from these, nevertheless the bottom line is that he’ll be doing this “at his own peril”, in other words left to his own devices. All these aspects combined will contribute to an exploration that will have its share of messy-ness, turbulence, confusion.

For these reasons it will not be “wrong” to delay the decision-making or the confrontation of the inner desire or idea. It will be understandable to put this down for the moment. The self may likely need a moment to store up momentum, energy, “motivation” if you will, so that once the process does begin, he has enough energy in store to carry it out and lead it into fruition.

From the moment the decision is made, either right now or at some undisclosed moment in the future, it will take, at least, never less than a period of, ten years, before the self begins reaching a stage where he feels somewhat confident in managing what is desired in terms of physical experience, and remaining in relative balance and control while doing so.

Even at this stage, this balance that will start to form might not be “perfect”, in the sense of being completely harmonious, peaceful, blissful. But there will be a degree of neutrality to it: it will neither be “good” or “bad”. The bulk of charge and guilt will have dissipated. Most of the storm has been weathered. It will be a balance that allows for self to function in the world while still retaining solid spiritual integrity and awareness. But most importantly, it will bring the realization to the self that in a practical sense it is indeed viable to aspire to combine the allowance of experiences in the physical, with genuine spiritual acuity.

From that point forward, what offered by this reading is: “then we’ll see”.

3.3 Practical Example

We’ll now offer a number of guidelines meant to provide assistance to the practical process of integrating the spiritual and material life. Making sense and use of these may depend on if and when the decision is made in the lifetime to move forth with this integration. Nevertheless we’ll leave these in writing so that they may be used later if necessary.

The first guideline is that the process is one of learning through practice, and will therefore require high amounts of patience, from the self to the self. Rome wasn’t built in a day. You will begin the process not knowing how to do it at all, and this should not be interpreted in any way as signifying you are weak at it – only that no one had taught you how to do it yet. You have no life references about it. So it is necessary to go about it as a self-discovery process above everything else.

There is an element to physical stimuli in the past related with the consumption of alcohol. There is likely to be a story of drama and charge prior to meeting the spiritual, that was labeled as alcoholism and addiction. Furthermore I believe the type of alcohol was whisky. For this reason let’s use the example of whisky as a “case study” of sorts, for the purposes of the offering these guidelines.

The physical body is able to handle the consumption of moderate amounts of alcohol, provided the consumption is made in balance. That is not to say consumption of alcohol doesn’t bring toxic chemical elements into the physical body. But if this consumption includes the mindfulness of not disrespecting the balance of the body, the potential is that the level of harmful elements introduced with the alcohol, and produced by the body’s metabolism as a result of the presence of alcohol, while indeed present, in a practical sense won’t create harmful, destructive effects. In other words while physically present, such harmful elements are kept in a neutral, inert state by the body, that does not throw off its physical chemical balance, and thus its state of health. This is the potential.

Would the ideal be to not to have intake of alcohol at all? Perhaps. However it’s also equally true that the physical reality is designed for physical experience, and up to an extent and within reason the body can be exposed to circumstances that could be labeled as harmful, without necessarily falling prey to them. For example the immune system fights invasive microorganisms on a daily basis without the person ever consciously knowing about it, and certainly, in common circumstances, without the necessity to sterilize the environment one is living in. This is not a rule but a rule of thumb; there are certainly exceptions and specificities to this idea. Our point at this moment is that it is possible for you to establish the consumption of whisky in your life in the context of relaxation and for pleasure, without drama, without the charge, without whisky growing to become a destructive force in your life.

The approach to experiment with whisky is as follows.

3.4 Mindset, and Identifying the Moment of Satisfaction

The reason to take whisky in the first place should ideally be one of relaxation, of enjoyment. When you want to take whisky, it should be to enjoy it, to flavor it, focusing on it. Not all human beings take pleasure or can savor the taste of this beverage, so this can be considered to be a particular taste. The reason to have it should not be to compensate for something, or to achieve a specific purpose, for example to cause the effect of numbness when unpleasant emotion is being felt.

Alcohol creates the energy of numbness/relaxation. So if you’re dealing with a difficult situation that needs clarity from your part, but instead you drink alcohol to deal with it, you’re creating precisely the opposite effect. You’re creating more confusion, and you’re distancing yourself more from being able to solve, face, or handle the situation. So while you’ve become temporarily relaxed, and it feels as if some solution is being found, it is an illusion because in reality the situation itself doesn’t get any better, and it will still be around and unchanged after the effect of the alcohol passes. If and when you go through a difficult situation, don’t use alcohol as a tool to deal with it.

The ideal scenario is for the beverage to be taken in a moment when everything is okay, and you feel you can enjoy it without any pressing matters you have to deal with.

When you are in the process of tasting the beverage, at some point there should be a moment when you feel you can stop because you’re satiated from the experience. Past this moment if you allow yourself to “just have one more sip” you’re crossing the line into the unbalanced behavior zone, as you no longer need to drink any further. You would be relaxing your boundaries in an appropriate manner.

This is the moment when you should use a more assertive decision-making to simply stop and put the glass down, without justifying, rationalizing, or create any excuses to keep drinking.

Initially this moment might be difficult to distinguish, because there will be a high charge of guilt and tension, mixed with high levels of excitement about drinking, that will make it confusing to understand when this moment comes, consequently making it difficult to make a strong decision to stop. The ego might also begin to use any excuse it can find to justify continuing to use it. “I don’t know if I should.”, “I don’t know if I still want or not”, etc, further adding to the lack of clarity. Finally the alcohol itself already has an effect of creating lack of clarity: the more it is taken in a non-mindful way (too fast, without savoring) the more this effect is going to apparent.

Nevertheless practice will let you better understand how to know when this moment arrives, and respect it. For exactly this purpose, ironically (but we’re serious) your moment of drinking whisky will highly benefit from MEDITATION. This tool will in fact be paramount in this situation.

3.5 Meditation

You might have difficulty in staying mindful during the act of taking whisky, which may have you fall into a mode where you’re drinking automatically, unconsciously, without paying attention to it – which can easily lead to you going over the boundaries of balance, as you’re not paying attention. It might sound like a contradiction but it is possible to be in a state of relaxation while still being mindful of the action being taken, but once again it takes practice. This is where meditation comes in.

Here is a suggestion for a meditation exercise.

Take the whisky and pour it into the glass. Place the glass in front of you, on a table for example. Then sit comfortably on a chair or on the ground, so that the glass of whisky is at eyesight level. Sit in a lotus position. Allow yourself the private time and space alone to properly undergo this ritual beforehand.

You’re now facing the glass of whisky standing directly in front of you. The whisky is likely to already be stimulating/assaulting your physical senses, you might be for example be able to pick up its smell. You might also be experiencing strong feelings and emotions that relate to the tension associated with whisky. You might be experiencing an enormous urge to just drink it, while at the same time an equally strong sense of self-punishing for wanting to do it. Now you meditate. Before drinking.

You are to meditate in whichever way you were taught and works best for you. Your intentions held in this meditation will be as follows:

  • detach your identification from both the urge to drink and the urge to blame. You are not the one wanting or blaming. You are the one observing. The one who’s allowed the experience instead of canceling it. The one who decided to own and train your discernment about this matter. The one who will have to have the patience and strength to endure through the process. Also the one who will dare to risk breaking the mold. The one who’ll dare not dwell on whether to do it or not, on the ‘should’ or ‘shouldn’t, but to just go forward and get on with it;
  • focus on the physical sensations given off by the whisky. Observe them. You don’t have to be controlled by them if you don’t want to. Energetically cleanse all energies of charge, tension, drama, guilt, and memories from the past, that may surround the act of drinking, so that it may be experienced with as few of these emotions in the way as possible, and hopefully reduce their intensity over time;
  • request and ask your spiritual team to assist you in being mindful throughout the entirety of the act of drinking, from start to end. To be with you so that the material experience can be carried out with an active genuine connection and collaboration with Spirit. And to assist you in having the presence of mind and clarity to be able to identify when the time to stop comes, and to have the strength to make the call to stop at that time.

A single session of meditation before drinking once will likely not make the charge of the situation disappear overnight. However the cumulative effect of the repetition of the experience over time – i.e. practice – will be able to slowly reduce the hold the experience has over you, which is what can create imbalance.

The end goal will not necessarily be to perfectly free and detached from the seductive power of the physical experience. It’s its nature. At least for the context and timeline described in the context of this reading, even if you gain control of yourself you will likely still find the prospect of drinking alluring, pulling you, as if the ego’s constantly trying to seduce you. This probably won’t go away completely. Instead you will have to learn how to live with it. To stare it in the face, and still have the willpower to not be compelled by it, to not have your final choices not be dictated by it. At that point you’ll be choosing not with your ego, but with your discerning spiritual self, despite the ego.

Only on a much later stage will there be the potential that you become actually unfazed and indifferent to the pull of the experience.

Throughout this process it will be of importance, during meditation or by any other venue, that you’re able to connect with your personal spirit guides (either once and clearly, or over time with practice) and sense firsthand their genuine stance on this matter, and about whisky – as opposed to having any preconceived perception of intrinsic criticism from Spirit about this experience.

3.6 There and Back Again

Once again we’ll state that learning how to discern where the line between balance and imbalance stands, is going to be am extremely challenging process. There will possibly be the stepping over of that line at one time or another. The energetic charge surrounding the experimentation will not go away overnight.

Should you ever find yourself experiencing the sensation of crossing a point of no return, that is to say that you irrevocably lost clarity and control and you simply cannot hold yourself back from the drinking, that is the moment when you can apply what you already know the returning to the spiritual that you know: cutting off the consumption completely, and perform an abstinence or withdrawal, and perhaps a purge or detox, much like you would do if you’d just transitioned from the realm of material experiences to the spiritual one that doesn’t allow them.

This is the moment when you apply the knowledge of the spiritual philosophies of the East in their original form, and you use it to cleanse yourself completely if you need to. Not because the experience is once again labeled as intrinsically dooming and corrupting, but instead with the perspective of, at a later time, when you’re in balance again, with your emotions and judgment functioning again, when you’re replenished and ready, to give it another go.

If you do reach a point where you can’t have enough control, it is important then to actually detach and detox, as opposed to remain indefinitely in the mindset of “I can stop if I want to”. This thought is nice to have as it seems to offer personal control over the situation, however if it prevents and delays the making of the decision, then in practical terms it’s working against you rather than for you.

Easier said than done. Definitely.

But you will never be truly satisfied by remaining where you are. You will always wish to find a way to integrate both worlds, in a practical sense, through your personal experience first and foremost. Not because this reading said so. Because that is the project you subscribed for on the spiritual level. Furthermore, your background in both realms – material and spiritual, West and East – offers you a unique set of circumstances playing in your favor.

By 1) owning the responsibility of owning the choice of allowing the experience, 2) owning the responsibility of monitoring yourself as you venture into it, and 3) realizing in practical terms you can remove yourself from it once again if you need to (as you have done so before, it is something you know how to do), you will realize you’re now able to make that choice, and that you’re not so powerless in the situation as you thought you were. That is potential for healing in this situation.

[Under no circumstance is this reading meant to be interpreted as encouraging the comsumption of alcohol, or any other habit, without properly using your judgement. You are responsible for your actions and their consequences, and for assessing what is appropriate and balanced for you in your life.

After receiving the reading the client described he had no contact with whisky specifically, but that his “western out of control period” had included all types of alcohol and drugs indiscriminately. Having repeatedly received the image of whiskey during the reading, my assumption was that this would be the optimal liquor with which to perform the experiment as described.]

Part IV. Past-Life

When an Akashic Records reading presents a past-life that was famous and/or known, it is always a risky situation. From the point of view of the client [or the reader], and statistically speaking, what are the odds that person X or Y was this one figure in a past-life? By choosing to transmit this information I’m aware I’m placing the trustworthiness, perceived by others about me, on the line.

I do not have any kind of agenda to amaze others or rub their ego by claiming famous past-lives. It sometimes occurs but it is is not that often.

On the other hand, if I reach a point where I understand the information is valid and trustworthy, then it doesn’t matter if it’s unbelievable or bold. It is what it is. And I have to trust that it bears the potential to spiritually serve the person for whom the reading is being made, now or in the future.

And so with this mindset I will proceed.

You were [famous political figure, subsequently referred to as “S”].

This life was a first attempt to try to operate with both of the worlds at the same time, i.e. to try to be in balance and truthful to the inner self, and be able to consistently perform quality benevolent service for the collective consciousness, while at the same time actively retaining and allowing elements that consisted in expansively and without restriction exploring the ego and the material world.

“S” had no qualms about engaging in infidelity in marriage, and in pursuit of the ego desire for sexual appetite in an unbounded manner. This reading in any way wishes to convey sex is an intrinsically imbalanced impulse, however in this specific circumstance there was the feeding of an energy that could be described as debauchery, that is to say to invest in sexual involvement propelled strictly by the ego, and specifically beyond and despite the arrangement of the form of marriage that was in place. While it certainly was something that to an extent was tolerated within the familiar realm and kept somewhat behind close curtains, it is nevertheless true at the same time that this generated an immense amount of fracture, instability, promiscuity, dishonesty, and turmoil, within that same familiar realm, especially on an emotional level. (…)

During this lifetime there wasn’t the presence of the Eastern philosophical or religious thinking per se. There was some religious affiliation to the values of the Church but it wasn’t something truly connected through the heart, and it was done partially for the purposes of transmitting an adequate and proper personal and familiar image consistent with the aspiration for political roles.

In place of the discipline afforded by the mindset of the East there was an immensely strict structural element conveyed in the upbringing by the family. All within the family worked to provide the best possible conditions for the political aspirations and ambitions of its members, heavily reliant on public perception and opinion. (…) These rooted belief systems that held as utmost priority keeping an impeccable, above reproach outward appearance, and the reasoning behind them carried somewhat of a positive intent: it envisioned bringing into the political array those who genuinely had positive intentions. Today in the current lifetime this carries forward as an ingrained desire to stick to what is perceived as ethically and spiritually impeccable within the East-based spiritual belief system. It also plays with the distrust in one’s own judgment, and unwillingness to go against what is believed by others.

While certainly not “spiritual,” this highly rigid structure in terms of consciousness served the role of anchoring behavior, by dictating very clearly what was allowed and what was disallowed for each individual to believe and act – including ego-based behavior. It served as the point of structure (…) for the purposes of that specific incarnation, and also the stakes involved in development of society at that moment and in that cultural context, it was seen as serving as a framework for the incarnation that facilitated keeping the core benevolent intention intact when serving the greatest good of others. Despite its extremes, its practical effect was precisely of allowing the ego to unfold to some extent in certain areas, but forbidding it from entering into the core spiritual mission of serving positively.

In a very core spiritual sense, the test of this life (or one of them) was to prove (from the self to the self) that it was viable to engage in ego-based behavior without having it corrupt the core of the benevolent alignment, discernment, and intention, of the inner self, specifically when it came to provide service to others. And this was achieved, as in life “S” would not be corrupted in his benevolent altruistic intent in serving, despite the indulging in any ego-based or low energy impulses.